2.04.2009

seeing more clearly...

Over the past couple of weeks, I feel like my "spiritual vision" has been improving. I've been seeing more clearly...

This is both good and bad.

Bad because I'm seeing more and more how corrupt and wretched I really am. My sinful and selfish ways are often earthly and unspiritual. I often run on the wisdom of the world, rather than relying on the pure wisdom that comes down from heaven. The thing that has become extremely clear is the envy and selfish ambition wrapped up inside me.

"Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom. But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. Such "wisdom" does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, of the devil. For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice. But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness." (James 3:13-18 NIV)

The good part of all of this is that in seeing the sin and wretchedness, it is more abundantly clear day after day how great is God's faithfulness, and how His grace is really more than enough; it's everything! There have been so many good things that have come up and happened in my life in these past two weeks. So I'm writing this more as a testament to God's faithfulness even in the midst of a corrupt and sinful one.

Psalm 89:1-18 captures God's faithfulness of what I'm talking about.

Great is your faithfulness Oh God!....

1 comment:

alysong said...

His grace is always wonderful even though its sometimes incomprehensible (at least for me). I had a pastor that always said 'for every one look we take at our sin, take 25 looks at the cross.' If we don't focus on the character of Jesus, we tend to get stuck within the maze of our own darkened hearts.